Life has always been perfect in flow as you.  The contractions and the expansions are just the ever present dance of identity on the still canvas that always is, and will always remain.

You are the ocean, and the ripples are just awareness fixating on identity as its seat of origin.  A simple misconception that comes undone when you presence into the stillness you are.  Rest as awareness.

Notice the expansion and contraction in your body /mind connection.   Source Origin as you has no concept of time, only perceived identity does. Let go of your neurotic need to understand and release your contractions.!