It takes a few months to establish a wakeful and aware meditation practice that becomes fluid and life supportive for an abundant life. In this space you begin to see the reoccurring sensory waves that inform habitual and conditional perceptions.
Without it, a clear an precise practice, people backslide into familiar patterning once they begin to feel a sense of grounding. Without guidance, persistence,and patience few realize the innate Sacred eternal intelligence as their very center of being.
with practice, ‘presence’, with its infinite stillness, gradually displaces all mental and emotional activity. The body is realized as self- propegating and is merely a property of nature which functions by responding to conditions. Nothing moves or acts independently and as such even experiencing ceases.
In this process you put any current anger, hurt, sadness, and self defeating habits to good use. Do not let the inner critic steal these thunderbolts of energy to feed habitual self criticism, self pity, and self loathing . Instead choose this constructive healing path available to you. This is where you will begin to see all your unconscious coping mechanisms and their subsequent bullshit outcomes that create your direct suffering.
This direct process of healing speeds up exponentially with the assistance of a loving presence that has traversed the territory. Ask for guidance to heal the cyclical trauma that maintains the habituated busyness. Vipassana is an excellent practice as it gradually clears tiredness, brain fog, and unproductive pain.